In the Pacific Time Zone, the moon is new today, May 7^th at 8:21 pm and full on May 23^rd at 6:53 am, local time.

https://www.timeanddate.com/moon/phases/@z-us-83864

I’m so grateful to be fully immersed in spring! May has started with the erratic temperatures and precipitation that are common here, in the Inland Northwest. The forecast is for warmer and drier weather. While the rain is appreciated, it will be nice to have a little sun, too. There is something so special about the fragrance of the forest after rain. When the sun comes out and warms the dark wood, the trees begin to steam, creating an ethereal scene, even if short-lived.

This new moon, I’m called to offer something old, in a new way. 15 Minutes of Love was offered several years ago and has been on-going. If this is new to you, this event was to spend 15 minutes a week (Friday) at 6pm, no matter your time zone and send love out to the world. The idea being that you could meditate, drum, rattle, tone, whatever it is that brings you into sacred connection with your highest self and the earth.

To make this a little more intimate, I’m offering this idea as a short interaction via Zoom. For 15 minutes I will drum or rattle and then a short check in for anyone who wants to chat. I’ll be offering this (generally) on the first, third and fifth Wednesday of each month at 6pm Pacific Time, starting on May 15th. I’ll be sending out more information about that soon.

There will not be any formal Group Distance Reiki this month. I will be traveling both of those days at the time I usually send the energy. I will still be holding space on those days, but the times will be as I can. I’m not able to schedule them this month. To all who access by intention, you will still be able to do that by asking to experience the Group Distance Reiki from May 10^th and May 26^th.

I hope to see you on Wednesday, May 15^th at 6pm Pacific Time for 15 Minutes of Love! I will send complete information about the event next week.

With Love,

Deborah

In the Pacific Time Zone, the moon is new on March 10^th at 01:00 am. On March 25^that 12:00 am the full moon begins. All times taken from https://www.timeanddate.com/moon/phases/usa/sandpoint

Here in the Inland Northwest, we’ve had a very topsy-turvy winter. Sometimes very cold, sometimes very mild, lots of rain on top of snow, with most of that snow coming in late winter. Now that we’re close to Spring, Winter feels as if it is reluctant to leave. As I’m writing this, it’s nearly 40F with a light snow.

The Spring or Vernal Equinox is approaching (March 19^th) and will be quickly followed by the first Lunar eclipse of this year, with the full moon. It will be visible to all of North America. https://www.timeanddate.com/eclipse/lunar/2024-march-25

The stirring that started with the Winter Solstice for me has brought good insight and actions. I had been asking to ‘see’ what I have been blinded to; to truly remember who I am, and live in the fullness, the wholeness of my Being.

As I worked with this issue in shamanic journey space and meditation, with the support of human friends and spirit allies, my vision was opened. I was given the opportunity to let go of things that no longer serve me and embrace the truth of who I am. I was then given the opportunity to create a ceremony to honor those changes created on the spiritual plane, bringing them into the physical.

The timing for this ceremony was for the evening of the New Moon (3/9/24) around dusk.

The day had been sunny and bright. As I gathered my tools and offerings, the clouds turned dark, the wind began to pick up, and the rain started to fall. I prepared my space, making a small alter and fire in the Dutch oven that I use for such occasions. A tall, wide Cedar tree agreed to hold space and shelter me; she is a magnificent and wise Being. My beloved, all of my spirit allies and all of nature stood as witnesses to this ritual. As I rattled and tended the fire, giving it sacred herbs and incense, the wind was howling, the ravens calling and expressing their support. The rain and my tears wetting my face as I spoke the words that terminated the contracts that had been holding me in a place of blindness. I was restored to the fullness of my birthright. I gave gratitude for the wisdom to live from wholeness, from peace and love with discernment. As the ceremony completed, the ravens quieted, the wind and rain became a little gentler. I expressed my gratitude to the beautiful Cedar tree that sheltered me and supported this work. I tended the embers until they were safe to leave to the snow, gathered my things and joyfully went back into my home feeling warm and filled to overflowing. I have the knowing that all the stirring I’ve experienced was the catalyst for change and I’m grateful for all of it.

My wish for you, is that whatever stirs you brings you to a place of transformation in exactly the way that you need. May you be blessed by the storms of your life.

I’ll be hosting a live, on-line event for the Spring equinox on March 19^th. You’ll receive an invitation with a Zoom link and details, via email. My intention is to gather together to work with the energies of this emerging Spring; it’s a transformative opportunity for supporting each other in igniting the innate, inner healer. We will also work as a group for the well-being of the Earth and all of Humanity.

On April 8^th, there will be a total solar eclipse and the new moon. More about that next month.

The New Moon began on January 11th at 03:57 AM and will be full on January 25^th at 09:54 AM, in the Pacific Time Zone. All times taken from

https://www.timeanddate.com/moon/phases/

What a powerful new moon this is! Last evening and into this morning, I felt very emotional, out of sorts and frustrated. Have I felt this way before? Yes, of course. What I realize is that there are things being brought up for me to clear and transmute—things I thought I’d let go of. Another level of the spiral. I’m grateful for the opportunity for expansion, even if it’s at times, uncomfortable.

I’d already planned to share this short writing with you. After the waves of emotion, I’ve been feeling today, it seems even more appropriate. I wrote this piece for a writer’s workshop. I hope my experience translates into something that stirs your Being, as it did mine.

The question of “Who do you think you are?” is a great thing to ponder and explore as we start a new year. This question provides a foundation for who and how you want to express yourself in the coming year. It calls you to remember who you are. If you’re called to share your response to this question, I’d love to know who you are!

 “Who do you think you are?” asking from a genuine perspective and giving an honest response. 

When this question came up, I immediately went to a memory of my sons during a time of turmoil that was soothed by a delicious family meal and deep, lively conversation. At the end of the evening as they were leaving, I blessed both of them, putting my hand on their hearts asking them to “remember who you are.” I have given myself this same directive over the last several years, so I understood the blessing wasn’t fluff or an easy ask. “Who do you think you are?” carries a similar feeling for me. It’s kind of intimidating…so, here goes.

To open my mind and heart to this question, I imagined an angelic being, radiant, benevolent and loving, standing before me. This being is like a shimmering cloud of energy with glimpses of facial features and hands. Standing directly across from me, she extends a hand, placing her palm on my heart space, as I did with my sons. I’d like to share the experience that this ‘imaginary’ being brought to me.

As her palm touched my chest, I immediately felt a deep abiding love. She asked the question without judgement. She began assisting me in remembering who I am, just by being present with me. She gave me space to define who I am at the core of my being.

I started slowly, with the things that seemed easy. “I’m a mother, daughter, wife, sister, friend. I am a healing facilitator.” I paused. “I am a paradox of traits. I have deep shadows and shiny facades. I can be very opinionated yet open to hearing different perspectives. I’m full of self-doubt and introverted. I often feel that I am perceived as being aloof by others. I’m an “observer.” I started to think of the portions of me that are more than this current expression.  I went on. “I’m a Divine spark. I’m lifetimes and lifetimes of soul pieces supporting the current soul of “Deborah” in physical form.” I also know that the soul of who I am in this body supports and is a part of the other soul pieces in their physical form. Sometimes I have memories of these other lives and can call upon the skills that were gathered in those other experiences.” Not wanting to seem either boastful or too critical I stop my conversation with this being, silently asking if she’s heard enough. She responded gently “Have you heard enough? I think you can dig a little deeper. Who are you really?” She stated this in the nicest possible way. Ugh.

I felt my face get hot, and tears started to slide down my cheeks; there was a lump in my throat constricting my breath. “Why is this so hard? Why am I afraid of living, afraid of being seen, afraid of doing what I came here to do?” She gently communicates to me that it is I who called upon her and that I know the answers to these questions. She is not here to scold or give me a pep talk. She gently states “I am here because you called for assistance. ‘Why’ is not a productive question.”  I muster a whisper, “What IS the question that I should be asking?” Her voice is not audible but telepathic. I hear her words within my being, soothing like slow-moving water over rocks. She gives me some alternative questions to ponder. “How can I live in alignment with my Divinity? Where does this fear of being seen come from and how can I let go of the fear that I will be judged? What can I do differently to bring my being into its highest good and purpose? Do you feel the difference of the tone of these questions?” With her hand still upon my heart, I could feel a calmness flow through me, entraining my consciousness up to a different level. I took several deep, centering breaths and allowed myself to remember what it is to live in this higher state. I wiped the tears from my eyes and placed my hands on top of her hand, thanking her for her suggestions.

She asked again, “Tell me, who do you think you are? Let yourself explore all the possibilities. Leave nothing out, even the so-called bad things and the things that seem implausible to your human mind. Follow the cord of light within you, let it pull you to the highest expression of who you are.” 

From this altered state of consciousness, I began again with a deepened sense of self, a peacefulness—the way I feel when I’m working on behalf of others in journey space or during an energetic healing session. I started speaking, very quietly at first, “I am a conduit, a clear and open channel of the highest frequencies of love, light and healing, in service to humanity, the Earth and my highest self”. I paused, my voice was gathering strength and conviction. “I am Life. I am a being of light manifesting physical form. I am joy, beauty, intelligence, compassion. I am a co-creator with Divine.” I continued, sharing with this being; “I have also experienced what it is to be cruel, filled with rage and uncontrolled emotions; to be violent.” I went on, “These were powerful teachers. I’m grateful for knowing that the spectrum of creation is within me. I can now freely choose to express the attributes that further the evolution of Humanity, propelling myself, reeling myself in on that cord of light to my highest expression, physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. I am who I choose to be.” I realized as I was speaking to this loving being, that who I think I am changes as I more fully integrate the magnificence of my soul into physical form. The more I know myself, the more I let go of the traits that don’t serve me, allowing me to be more curious about the world around me and realize how my thoughts and feelings change and shape everything around me.

I felt satisfied, but spent. I thanked her for her assistance and patience. I felt her energy gently withdraw. I felt her blessing. I stayed in the space of peace and wonderment for several minutes, soaking in who I think I am; who I know I am.

This encounter lingered, giving me new insights. I’m a “late bloomer” in some ways, yet it also feels like I came to this life with more of an adult mindset than a child. I am actively cultivating a childlike sense of joy. I have gifts to share. To hold them back (as I have in the past) would be a dis-service to myself and my Creator. Receiving this wisdom was truly a gift. I will use it to give myself a little shove when I’m feeling stuck or less than worthy.